Preparing for hospital!

So I thought id do a little post about how I'm gunna be preparing myself for hospital and my operation on Friday! 

I also thought this was a good way to put everything down in writing so I could make a list and tick things off once I have them ready and together! 

I have no idea how long I will be in so if anyone has any suggestions of what I may need or what you guys take in for a hospital admission then id love to hear your input! Even though I've been in and out of hospital literally hundreds of times before!

I go in on Friday at 7am and anyone who knows me well will know that I hate early wake ups and mornings!! So I will be in a brilliant mood on Friday morning ;). Im 2nd on the list to go down to theatre for my operation so that could be from any time between 8-10am. I will make sure someone keeps everyone up to date with what's going on. 

Due to my complex and serious health problems any operation needing a general anesthetic is very dangerous for me to have and becomes a life threatening situation to me but thankfully I have a great team of surgeons, very experienced anesthetic consultants and a brilliant HDU/ICU team (high dependency or intensive care units) who will be doing there upmost to protect me and my heart and keep me as safe and as well as possible. I may need some help with my breathing afterwards and during there could be some scary times but right now we are just going to take it one step at a time. I won't be aware of what's going on so it's mum and Adam I feel bad for because they will have the dreaded wait to hear what is going on. I hate putting the people I care about the most through these awful times, if I could change things I really would. I am so grateful that I will have my wonderful mum and amazing boyfriend there with me holding my hands and supporting me Aswell as supporting each other while I'm in theatre. I love how well they get on and it makes me so happy to see and I feel a little better knowing they have each other there while I'm not around so neither of them will be alone. 

This op has been on the cards for a good several months now but had been canceled due to my heart and other problems but as now we know there is nothing that will change my situation they have decided we are just gonna go with it and I have said whatever happens, happens... If it's my time then it's my time and if it's not my time to go then it's not. But I'm not scared and I'm not frightened anymore. Death used to scare the living daylight out of me and litterally filled me with panic but now I see death as a peaceful pain free place where I can look after all I love from above. But I have no plans on going anywhere anytime soon. This operation will be scary for us all in some way but I know I'm in the best hands no matter what happens and I know everything possible will be done to help and do the right thing. 

Usually I take the usual bits like..

•phone&charger

•iPad&charger

•pjs

•spare clothes 

•meds

•pump and feeds

•shower/hair/body shiz 

And now this is where my mind goes completely BLANK!!! 

Currently I can't think of anything else but I think that's due to being in pain and having a stressful day so I may add more later. If anyone has any tips feel free to say or any questions feel free to ask me. 

On Friday I will make sure someone keeps you all updated and filled in on what's happening.

I'm still over the moon about Saturday and when I'll be being put to sleep on Friday I shall defiantly be rambling on to the nurses and ansthetic Drs about the night! Telling them about all the amazing people I met and what fun I had:). 

That's all for now..

All my love and kisses

Rosie x x